It’s nearly 3 am.
I should go to bed.
Except I know the bedroom is hot. My husband refuses to turn on the air conditioner “before June 1st.”
Don’t ask me.
I turn it on anyway during the day but he turns it off when he comes home from work.
So the bedroom feels like a sauna if the weather happens not to coincide with my husband’s arbitrary mandate. Which is a tad ironic since the bedroom is FREEZING in the winter.
Anyway, I thought,
“Maybe I’ll just sleep on the couch.”
Except I’d have to go get a blanket and some pillows.
My next thought was,
“I don’t feel like it.” (Going for a blanket and pillows.)
Then I thought,
“I’ll just sleep without.”
How is it?
Why is it?
That we essentially turn on ourselves – can’t even be bothered to get ourselves a blanket and pillow for sleeping for example – in response to their behavior?
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Waking up depressed, crying and lost. This life is not enough, he gives me no emotional connection connection, support, love. It’s killing me living this way, I feel weak and broken.
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