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alcoholic father, alcoholic husband, married to an alcoholic, surviving the alcoholic marriage, wife of alcoholic
his drinking.
I used to hate him for the beer bottles littering my house.
I used to hate him for his snoring as he laid passed out in the living room.
I used to hate him for the way he would scream and curse at me.
I used to hate him for the dirty dishes and trash he left laying around.
I used to hate him for being emotionally unavailable.
I used to hate him for never fully participating in our family life.
I used to hate him for the way he drove.
I used to hate him for being such a pessimist.
I used to hate him for his anger.
I used to hate him for turning the smallest incident into a verbal assault.
I used to hate him for his refusal (or inability?) to communicate with me.
I used to hate him for his constant harping about money.
I used to hate him for the suppressive pall he cast over our home.
I used to hate him for everything our marriage was not because of his drinking.
Now I just hate him…
For making me hate myself.
Beer bottles – check
Snoring-check
Dirty dishes-check
Driving-check
Emotionally vacant-check
Affecting family life -check
Cloud over the household -check
Lack of partner -check.
ITs like a checklist for my own experiences.
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We live very similar lives, we feel many of the same disappointments and
We deserve more!! We need to empower ourselves somehow Strength in numbers?
We all have a lot in common.
Wren have you considered starting a private/safe chatroom? When I have gone to Alanon chatrooms on stepchat I never really felt like people were living similar lives to me and the group was too diverse
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I found something similiar when I attended Al-Anon. I feel being the sibling, parent or child of an alcoholic is very different – certainly not better! – but different from being the wife of an alcoholic. I’d have to look into starting a chat room, I don’t know how to do that. I guess that’s why God made Google. 🙂
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