Watching other couples and families live their lives.
Pursue their dreams, plan their futures, achieve their goals.
My neighbors just bought their new-dream house.
A friend is planning a European vacation with her husband and three kids for next summer.
My ex-boyfriend is teaching his kids to ski and love the outdoors.
We, we exist.
Sure, we have some sports activities here and there. But mostly we all just co-exist in our house and life.
Could I save myself for my dream house?
Plan my own future?
Take my kids outdoors myself?
Of course I can.
Of!
Course!
But I didn’t really sign up for single-mom-but-not-really-single-mom when I got married.
I didn’t sign up for lonely nights, solitary parenting and living by myself with him.
Honestly it’d be easier to be a single mom.
At least I wouldn’t be living in the ILLUSION of having a partner.
QuietRagingWaters 
I so get this and live this.
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I read your book in one sitting. I do not get time for myself but for some reason the day your book was delivered I had a couple hours to myself. I have been looking for words, for something to help me. I like yourself knew my husband drank before marrying but what I did not know was that he was an alcoholic and how affected alcohol is on me and our kids. This post just screams out to me because these are my exact feelings. So thank you and keep your words coming because after reading your book and reading so many similarities in your life that I see in my own, I know that I am not alone.
So thanks!
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Omg. My thoughts exactly!!!
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