April was a month of mostly nothingness but before the “April blues” hit (there’s something you don’t hear often) I actually managed to write another book!

You may be surprised as to what the book is about and believe me, I was surprised as well that this book was in me.

Books are like that though. Most writers will tell you it’s not so much we write a book as a book chooses to manifest itself through us. And low and behold, here’s what came a knockin’ on my writer door:

Like I said, I was as surprised as anyone.

A book FOR the alcoholic husband?

I never really sat down with the intention of writing such a book. More it just came barging in one night. I was thinking about what I would need from my husband were he ever to want to repair our marriage and rekindle the love and passion between us. This book is what answered.

Meanwhile there is another book knocking at my door – in fact it is banging violently – and yet I won’t let it in. I opened the door just a crack to take a peek but I quickly slammed the door shut. Ironically – or probably NOT-ironically – I feel like it is the most important book on the subject of alcoholic husbands that I have in me. So why am I so stymied by it? I have been asking myself that and then tonight I found a quote I had saved in a notebook:

“Procrastination is the fear of success. People procrastinate because they are afraid of the success that they know will result if they move ahead now. Because success is heavy, it carries a responsibility with it. It is much easier to procrastinate and live on the ‘someday I will’ philosophy.” -Denis Waitley

Interestingly, on the same page of that notebook I saved this quote as well:

“To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived – this is to have succeeded.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

We all have gifts. God has been so kind as to impart on me if not the gift of writing, certainly the gift of wanting to write. I don’t believe God gives us our gifts AND the circumstances in which to use them. (i.e. “Hey, I’ll make Wren a writer and then give her an alcoholic husband so she can help others by writing about that.”) No, we are given gifts and it is our job – responsiblity – to use them to the betterment of our lives and the lives we touch.

Or not.

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