I started this blog because I thought it would be a good outlet for the array of emotions life with an alcoholic husband evokes.

I hoped that my experiences could somehow connect and resonate with other women and together we’d all walk, run, crawl, skip, limp and drag along.

But of all the emotions I have experienced…

Of all the emotions I could count on experiencing again…

I never anticipated the emotion of Nothing.

What more is there to write, say, feel?

It’s all Nothing after awhile.


Three of my kids are home right now.

Each in their own space with their heads in some sort of electronics.

He’s in front of the television…

And I’m here.

Another night of Nothing.